In 2009 I started an artistic collaboration with Brazilian writer Brisa Paim and her book 'study-of-the-end' that allowed me to feel my photography more profoundly than I ever had. ‘Visual letters about the end: pictures for myself’ is a work in progress that has been developed about the idea of the end as a finishing point and also an organic transformation into something else, something also perishable.
This project is a plunge into my own experiences and daily life to reveal feelings that are nostalgic, less controllable or difficult. It is a visual research for elements that resonate with my understanding of the end as something both finite and ephemeral in my relationships with others and with the environment around me. It is a project about loss and freedom.
I shot everywhere I went, wherever I felt vulnerable, lost and insecure. Soon I also understood the end as an incredible opportunity to start again, to reconnect with myself, to be free. These visual letters show slices of life. A life full of trust, appreciation, contemplation, rejection and loneliness. I was never the same after this project. It was a liberation from my own constraints.
The images were created using mainly 35mm film in many countries around the world. They were exhibited at Patriothall Gallery, in Edinburgh, and in the show 'Everything I Ever Learnt', in Cambridge, both in 2019.
